Hassig

Yes, yes I know it’s been awhile, but I finally got a theme for febuary. Con­sider the first 9 days as plan­ning. heh. any­way, i’m going with type as my theme for Feb. It truly is amaz­ing how much can be con­veyed with just words and how they’re arranged. Any­way, here’s… day what­ever (maybe I should start going by date) 2-10-2010.

Oh, and yeah, I’ve been feel­ing this way and sick most of the week, alas.

I’ve been get­ting worse at this con­sis­tent design thing. I thought it would make me bet­ter, more cre­ative, but I feel so dry, so unmo­ti­vated right now. I do think it has helped, but in a more tech­ni­cal sense. On that note, I have been telling myself all day to put some thoughts on paper (or blog, not the same but close enough).

Some­times I won­der why I blog at all, but deep down I think I know. I really do love shar­ing things with friends and peers, but for the most part I think I would still have a blog if I never had a sin­gle vis­i­tor. Some­times I just need to write stuff out, and paper is prob­a­bly bet­ter, there’s some­thing spe­cial about phys­i­cally writ­ing it out in your own hand­writ­ing, but sim­i­lar prin­ci­ples are at work here.

There has been so much on my mind lately. Work seems to hit me in very large waves. I don’t feel like I have the nec­es­sary skills at times nor the time to learn. Try­ing to bud­get. To plan. To pos­si­bly buy a house, mean­ing find a real­tor, look, bud­get… Prepar­ing for a wed­ding and all the things that go with, with a fiance that lives in a dif­fer­ent city. I think the worst thing of all is the close friends I have in my life are hun­dreds of miles away, mean­ing I often don’t have that out­let to share my thoughts, feel­ings, ect ect. At least not at the same level from for­mer times. I sup­pose that’s why I’m express­ing here, let­ting some­thing out.

Any­way, over­all things have been quite good. There’s so many rea­sons to be thank­ful. I find it chal­leng­ing even writ­ing this though because as I do there are so many thoughts basi­cally knock­ing each other down, try­ing to get out, like the open­ing of a pop­u­lar woman’s store on black fri­day. I should really let them out more. Well, if you man­aged to read all of this non­sense then thanks, and I appre­ci­ate your con­cern, or inter­est, or bore­dom, or what­ever it might be that would keep to read this drib­ble. As always, I wel­come your com­ments (except for spam­mers, that’s get­ting old).

- jason

I keep skip­ping days, and then I keep writ­ing about skip­ping days…heh. I really need a new theme for Feb­ru­ary, if you have any ideas please let me know. Here’s day 20 (rel­a­tively speak­ing), it’s basi­cally just a 5–10 min play­ground of some brushes, brush tool options, and some pen tool tech­niques. It took me years to get a han­dle on the pen tool and then one day it clicked, who knew.

I’ve got­ten pretty bad about skip­ping days… regard­less, here’s day 18. Jan­u­ary is over so “thoughts” theme is fin­ished, Haven’t decided on February’s theme, I’m open for input. Was think­ing about “soli­tude” or “nighttime”.