Hassig

Blog­ging, much like nearly every project or hobby I set my hands on, seems to be a roller coaster. I enjoy it, I really do, but it’s so incon­stant. In my defense though… who is con­sis­tent? Nearly every­one in my fol­low list starts a blog, makes a big deal about it, makes 3–4 post then noth­ing for months, comes back even­tu­ally, makes a few more post, then noth­ing again (please don’t take that per­son­ally, I do it too!)

I don’t even know what the point of this post is and that’s com­pletely alright with me. As sev­eral of my for­mer post illus­trate (or at times flat out say), I’m not look­ing to present top-notch writ­ing, con­sis­tency, and heck, I’m really not even writ­ing for any­one but myself. If you hap­pen to enjoy it regard­less, then won­der­ful. There’s been so much on my mind lately. I can’t even think straight. I’m blog­ging at work and I really don’t feel like I’m wast­ing time, because if I don’t get some­thing out then I’m just going to be com­pletely and utterly unpro­duc­tive and useless.

I’m in the mid­dle of buy­ing a house. Which is awe­some, but it’s unbe­liev­ably stress­ful. I’m get­ting mar­ried, to a girl who I’ve lived over 2 hours from for almost 6 months now. Wed­dings… are also quite stress­ful. I love my job,  but at times my job place­ment and my tem­pera­ment do not mix well. Most of my close friend­ships are dis­tant and it’s very dif­fi­cult for me to start new ones. And com­pletely worst of all, my sense of self-identity is in flux. I’m sup­posed to be a designer, I’m sup­posed to be in charge of a web­site and learn­ing about web­site, but I’m behind on cur­rent tech­nolo­gies and trends and I can hardly even find moti­va­tion to catch up.

Hm, well that is slightly less than pos­i­tive… um, yeah…